ok i'm bored. after this, im heading for the bed.

a fact to ponder about:

if you're having a cuppa hot coffee and have to add the sachet of sugar yourself, and supposed your usual preference is 1.5 sachets.

will you add one and a half and leave the other half to waste? considering there are other less fortunate in poor countries eyeing that half packet.

or might as well add 2 sachets to prevent wastage.

The Fact: Will the other half packet of sugar lands on their hands eventually, even when you did not waste it? sadly, I dun think so.

come to think of it, we're too fortunate and blessed to be living here. splurging on branded goods and stuff. the kind of material instinct, it sorta strucks me off. could be peer influence played a major part. just couldn't understand. whatever.

To My Dearest Friend Qin:

im excited for your new job and new live! aja aja Fighting k!!! I'm sure you will love the new place, new job, new friends and new PANTRY just as much. *at least you can rest at the pantry since it's not at the recep area. haha*

To My Dearest Friend Wei:

Wow. Switzerland leh.. how many times in your life will you have such opportunities! there's white and most importantly, there's HANDSOME WHITES!!! i wan also dun have leh!!! hahaha... enjoy k!! and work hard.. God bless you my friend...

Let's meet up soon!! after my papers lah! haa.

Lurb Lurb...

Hua Hua... Let's chiong for our very last 3 papers!!!! go go go!!!

this is the most crappy day ever.

monday and I've yet to touch any of those PM notes. I tried to get them into my head but whenever i reaches a certain page, i just feel like sleeping.

so on my bed i did. the next thing i knew was that i CANT FALL ALSEEP. Spotty was too barky. and this process repeated for like 3 times loh! wth.

oh yah. tried cooking off lunch with a pot of laksa. too much coconut milk. was intending to bring a portion for hua but she's been busy visiting the toilet bowl. so cant get to meet her. nvm la. she will complain fattening since it's a full bowl of coconut. right?

and yes.

Joe finally got the Swatch watch for me for VD prezzy in place of Christmas prezzy. it's so pretty. goes well with the Swatch necklace he bought for my birthday. no wonder he's been bugging me to TM and went for a toilet break for a super long time. sinister fella huh. and thanks. you know i love the watch.

and well. V Day is still a long way to go. what's up with the rush man. cant wait to surprise me i know. =)

i think i did a lame thing last thurs. went lil indian for threading. and from what I heard from my super cute little cousin's mother who is a beautician, she said it's not good to do threading. hmm.. why? i didn't ask. so i was determined not to do threading since it's an advice from a Paris/Japan graduated Beautician. and it appears on her face, her skin was flawless and fair.

BUT! i went along to do it eventually. cos it cost only a mere 5 bucks. yah yah. and compared to regular plucking, it's only a few bucks different. whatever.

So i asked the threading lady. "Er. they were saying threading is not good for the brow. Is it?"

what's the problem with me for asking that? hua must have feel that im an idiot at the point. telling a threading lady what she's doing is bad and yet im there waiting in line for my turn. bonker indeed.

"we have a few hundred shops slong Serangoon. If it's not good, then why is every body threading?"

followed by a disturbed look on her face, turning blacker and duller than her usual self.

Opps. Sorry.

i needa get back to the Tv and then my revision now. bye bye

and 2 papers were down today. 3 more to go before it marks the end of my SP journey. bitter, sweet and sour. what haven't I've tasted. from day 1 in year one, a lil conversation started with Erica & Hua, to the last day where i've met truely great people as well as not so great people. from the scoldings from lecturers for talking so loudspeaker-ly, and the love and concern im showered with. these are old fond sweet memories of school days. saying Goodbye soon.

Anyway, I can't wait to get a job of my own. it's a start out point of having to fend for myself without any more pampering and sheltering from mum.

I think im gonna miss that feeling. yes, i do.

nothing beats the feeling of having to hide under mum's love.

yeappie. my super long mcq-s paper is done today! i'm free for now. could at least watch my tv with an ease of mind.

*BIG SMILE*

i dun wanna study for CA tomolo. i feel so sick.i feel so pain. i wan my bed.

it all served me right for staying for until 7 this morning. was watching MY GIRL and studying at the same time.

i can't help it. it just addicts me. the man in black, Lee Dong Wook if im not wrong. he's no doubt dashing! and the show, make me..........

wanna fall in love again. it's so sweet to the heart.

how lovely to have 2 guys clinging unto me that often. then i'll choose one. and be the happiest girl ever after. hee hee hee. but that wont happen. will it? whatever. dream on.

back to reality. back to mugging. bye

small lil' prayer

oh lord,

please forgive me as a bad girl who skipped church for so long. i really wish to be back again. singing and pleasing you. please grant me the discipline to do so. i do miss church so much. i miss the people. i miss everything.

exams are coming. i dun fear for you'll be with me. i just need more strength and energy to make myself to study. i cant depend on myself but you. please showered me and my friends with your wisdom.

friends around me have been kinda disappointing recently. i dun wanna judge. i dun wanna hate. just wanna love them like you love us. take away all the unpleasant tots in my heart. also help them to learn how to love another and stop blabbering bout others. i pray for you to bless us with your abundant love and care.

i dunno what to do. should i study or should i not. let me listen to your ways and plans you have for me. guide me and lead me. i wanna live the life you wanna me to.

Amen

have been away for a while. lacking the motivation to post any. haha.

feeling sleepy every now and then. and did not did any revision for fmrp today. it's just 100 mcqs right. so what's so difficult bout it anyway.......

*faint*

as if. i wish. it's 100 min for 100 qs. mcqs may sound less tedious. but it's 1 min per qs. what a race against time, leaving you without extra sec to think twice. aiya. better than essay qs where you have to think of loads of rubbish to fill in the blank pages and ending up scoring less than half. pros and cons la. whatever.


been dying to post up pictures of my art pieces but i can't. until today!! when i'd passed the girls their prezzies.










Wei received the left note book. Shan received the right note book.



how is it? pretty? 100% genuine hand-made hor. and pricked my fingers ok. haa.



like i said, hand mades are for those who will appreciate your efforts. i'll do some thing in May again. =) lurb lurb.



Went fish and Co with the girls today. ordered sambal whole deep fried Fish and Sea food Platter. it was so spicy. and went Swenson for Ice cream - Earth Quake!!!! glutton(s) indeed. wahahaha.


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any one watches Girls Out Loud? featuring Roslyn and Xiaxie. notice that it resemble a show on channel 5?





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*photo from XX blog *The Simple Life



it's a total duplicate. one is super tall and thin. the other one is sorta short and not so thin. the way they talk in their show. like there's alot of ?!?!?!

only that the content is diff. no originality in S'pore tv entertainment industry.

whatever la. hardly touch my butt on the sofa to watch tv. oh ya. forgot to chase My Girl series.


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and Yes Yes!!!

*Borat - Cultural Learnings Of America For Make Benefit Glorious Nation Of Kazakhstan*

a new released film. Rated R21. showing a man from Kazakhstan who travels all the way to America to film a documentary TV program in his country. In his hotel room, there was where he found his love, Pamela from Bay watch. Learning she was from California, he travelled across the country, meeting with diff people and diff situations, creating lots of hilarious scenes. and i mean Real Funny.


a higly recommended show if you wish to laugh your heads off.









i needa sleep. night peeps. good night and sweet dreams

feeling darn lethargic these days. no amount of sleep could make up for the loss of sleep. yawn.

not in the mood for updates actually. but to prevent cobwebs, a lil' update will do. =)

Er. but. what to update?

*This will be it*

~YAWNING BIG TIME~

Before i go, i wanna say. Spotty is just so cuteeeee

*Shame on him* geez

"Flowers? Am i a???" going thru a tough sex confusion. hahaha

A Day in my Life I'll never Forget

How an ordinary day turned out to be...........................

grand dad was warded in the hospital on Monday mid noon. he was in a very serious condition from what mum said. i failed to visit him cos mum said there not a need yet. stayed home and waited for news instead. missed out on mj session. sorry girls.

mum came home that night with news saying he was currently in a stable condition temporary. dad added that he felt grand dad will pull through this ordeal as he was a strong willed man in nature. I felt at ease then.

made plans with Joe for some tanning in the morning but both of us were expected to, oversleep. oh yes, overslept we did. skipped tanning and went Park way that noon. before mum left the house, "got time go visit Gong Gong" she said. i treated it as a flea in my ear and brush it off, thinking of visiting him the next day. had a great day with Joe. during dinner at Villa'Ge, Van called and said mum told us to rush to the hospital now. we hesitated

"huhhh. you want to go ah? So late already. Dont feel like going. How??? Dont care ah? im at Cause way now leh. To speak of the truth, I dont have much feeling for him since we're not close. DOnt feel like going leh." van claimed.

"im having dinner now. so late already. we go tomolo la. i call mummy ask her." me

"you all better come. you all must understand. Gong Gong is in a critical condition. any time can pass away. see him before it's too late." mum said when i called her.

"ok. i meet vanda around 10 plus then go." me

joe told me to go. I said i dont feel like going. unpleasent words came from my mouth soon after that. weird. as I speak, I dun feel the same way in my heart. was pondering why vanda could say heartless words like those, which in turn induced me to think the same way as her. i was perplexed and remorseful. changed my mind and decided to stay over the hospital through out the night to accompany grand dad. that's the best I could do.

as there are sufficient time after dinner to go for a stroll round China Town, i was again tempted to stay longer to shop. So i picked up my phone and msg mum to ask if I can make my way down tomolo noon. She said yes ok. well, i was definitely glad to hear that.

on my way home at Eunos MRT station. received a call from van that mum said gong is in a very serious condition. we have to be present as he may leave anytime. sian as i was, took 21 down to TTSH. during the journey, a sudden feeling of anxiety hit me. with a mere $5 and zero atm around, i could only alight at Balestier to hail for a cab. so i did.

upon reaching, i learnt that Grand dad's heart beat fell to a low of 40 plus per min. a normal healthy person's heart beat is apx 75 to 80. that's when I realized the seriousness of his sickness.
the rest of them went back, leaving me and van to stay behind to look after him together with another Ah Gu. grand dad had a serious lung infection and that the strongest anti-biotic they could possibly offer failed to cure him. he was literally gasping for air. my heart shattered.

van and I were chatting in the room while AH GU went else where to grap a wink of sleep. to our dismay, both of us wanted to sing praises for him to listen but did not cause we're both "pai seh". i was feeling pretty restless when the needle struck 2am. decided to go for a cuppa coffee from a vending machine.

"God. please save my grand father. please heal him." i was crying out in my heart as i sipped along with the coffee. pang of hunger struck my tummy. was comtemplating to go for a short break at the 7/11. changed my mind after that as i wanted to see grand dad.

the moment i stepped inside, BP fell to 46, 53. i looked at him. he wasnt gasping for air anymore.
grand pa is still. 5 secs passed, BP showed a "----" . i knew, he's gone.

i saw the instant and sudden death right in front of my very eyes. the moment his heart stopped pumping, the moment he stopped breathing. i witnessed it all. it's hard breaking the news to my family.

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the short span of time in the room while I was out for coffee.............

van found the courage to sing praises for him to listen. she held his hand in hers.

".......... hold my hands, walk........" was part of the lyrics.

at that instant, she saw his BP dropping tremendously. she let go of his hand. she saw, his hand went back to the position, as if he's holding some thing else. he swallowed 4 times. i came back, in time to witness his death.

he left peacefully. with a look of falling into a deep deep sleep.
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what if me and Van never ame it down today?

Was he waiting for us to visit him before he leaves?

what was he holding at the moment of death?

was it the hand of Jesus coming to walk him into heaven?

why must he leave the moment van sang praises?

the answer to all these qs. we'll never know. all i know, he's in heaven now. i can feel it.

grand dad was in a coma for these 2 days. he never got to say his last words nor we get to say our heart felt feelings. he left without a word of goodbye. "I love you" ,which he can never hear, was repeated time and time again after he left us. HE CAN NEVER HEAR.

love and treasure your love ones whilst they're alive. for you'll never know what might happened next.

grandad was with us on christmas, indulging in his fave curry chicken and a lil' grape beverage. he fell ill on the very next day with Lung Infection.

I never got to speak a single word with him on christmas. How i wish we were there again, and i would shout it out loud,




"Gong GONg!!! I love you......."

applied a ultra super duper HOT PINK nail colour on mine. and it turned out ultra super duper so not working well for me.

er. for the sake of not shortening my nails any further with my teeth. wahahaha. dun care la

besides, it looks kinda cute la. geez.


"Night at the Museum" & "Death Note 2"

i'll be itching all over if i missed out on movies for a long time. so in this one week. I've watched 2 movies. How cool is that. =)

Death note 2 disappoints me a lil's as the story gets lame and complex eventually.

Night at the Museum is "3 out of 5". A "can watch" film when you are lurking around town aimlessly. not that bad afterall.


Updates on Christmas Eve's eve. successfully smuggled our steam boat into Gallery Hotel. had a fabulous dinner and rounds and rounds of games. 10 of us managed to squeeze onto 2 single beds.

brilliant!!


Grandpa was warded in Tan Tock Seng hospital today for having a sudden heart failure. he was in a critial condition in the day. a fragil old man. im worried for any mishap. 1st of Jan, to think such incident could happen in the new year. and he's a pre-save.

Oh God, please bless and bring him back to health.

keep him in prayer ok peeps. thank you loads.

i've decided. finally i've made up my mind. a decision that i've been struggling to make is finally finalled!! haa.




"im binding my teeth !!!"

in a few months time.

heck the pain. heck the money. heck the hassle

im going for it for sure. =)

that's what Joe drew for me when i'm upset with him. it definitely brings the smile back unto my face.

he's been real sweet to me.